Nobody thinks.. ( am i depressed??)?

Yes, your depressed, with allot more issues as well. If possible go to therapy, you have allot of TRUST issues, you don't trust yourself or anyone else. One more thing, you have abandonment issues, this means when you date you will never show your true feelings, and dating will dangerous for you. You'll also not stay with your partner very long, you will want to leave the relationship quickly. You'll never be in a good relationship until you get some therapy. Don't date for at least a year or more. Anymore questions about your abandonment issues, you can contact me anytime.